My title says it all. I have nothing. At almost 25 years old, I have nothing to show for my life. Most women my age are married with kids, going for a masters degree, traveling, or doing something with their life. I have nothing to show. I have no money - But I do have over $10,000 in debt. I still live at home with my parents. My car is broken down and I can't even go anywhere. I am stuck in the house with no money, no boyfriend, and these stupid outrageous expectations. I keep hearing how well I am doing and how awesome I am and all I have is NOTHING.
My life is nothing. What is the purpose if I have no direction? What is the meaning if I have no results? I do nothing, I have nothing, I am nothing. What is the point of breathing when I am the equivalent of nothing? I don't want to be me any more. I want to be anyone, but me. I want to be the girl who has everything in front of them; the girl who has the ability to shop on credit and spend time with friends at the mall. I want to be the girl who can get on a plane and take off to a new place; the girl who is going places. I want to be the girl with the degree; the girl with the body; the girl with the boyfriend.
I hate who I am, I hate what I am doing, I hate the world, and I hate my life. I am in hell and I want out.
Showing posts with label self love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self love. Show all posts
Thursday, April 21
Wednesday, February 1
Love "me"
You have to love yourself, before you can love anyone else.
A concept so simple. Love yourself and then love others. But how do we go about loving ourselves without affection? How is it that we can love ourselves without a loving relationship? And if there is a way, what is it?
I guess it works the same way your needs do. If you cannot suffice your own needs and care for yourself, how can you anyone else?
But the truth of the matter is, we avoid ourselves inside and out. We avoid mirrors, pictures (unless you are narcissistic), self conversation, talking about ourselves, our needs. Everything we do, will never be good enough by our own standards. We will never amount to anything in our own eyes. We continue to be our own biggest critic. We will never be comfortable and safe in our own skin.
STOP!
We are gorgeous. We are smart. We are funny and bright. We have great ideas, we have a great personality, and people love being with us. We are beautiful just the way God made us.
See, our attitude keeps us down. We allow ourselves to get down because we listen to the critic inside.
So stop listening. Argue with it. Tell it to eff off. Tell the inner critic that we love ourselves. Upset the critic so that it listens for a change.
I'm realizing that once that voice shuts up, my brain has a few minutes to love myself. And everyday, I intend to grant my brain a few minutes more to love me.
So I challenge you. Shut the critic up, and love yourself for a few minutes each day.
Because ultimately, until we love ourselves, we can never love anyone else and chances are, the majority of people we know, will not be able to love us.
A concept so simple. Love yourself and then love others. But how do we go about loving ourselves without affection? How is it that we can love ourselves without a loving relationship? And if there is a way, what is it?
I guess it works the same way your needs do. If you cannot suffice your own needs and care for yourself, how can you anyone else?
But the truth of the matter is, we avoid ourselves inside and out. We avoid mirrors, pictures (unless you are narcissistic), self conversation, talking about ourselves, our needs. Everything we do, will never be good enough by our own standards. We will never amount to anything in our own eyes. We continue to be our own biggest critic. We will never be comfortable and safe in our own skin.
STOP!
We are gorgeous. We are smart. We are funny and bright. We have great ideas, we have a great personality, and people love being with us. We are beautiful just the way God made us.
See, our attitude keeps us down. We allow ourselves to get down because we listen to the critic inside.
So stop listening. Argue with it. Tell it to eff off. Tell the inner critic that we love ourselves. Upset the critic so that it listens for a change.
I'm realizing that once that voice shuts up, my brain has a few minutes to love myself. And everyday, I intend to grant my brain a few minutes more to love me.
So I challenge you. Shut the critic up, and love yourself for a few minutes each day.
Because ultimately, until we love ourselves, we can never love anyone else and chances are, the majority of people we know, will not be able to love us.
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