My title says it all. I have nothing. At almost 25 years old, I have nothing to show for my life. Most women my age are married with kids, going for a masters degree, traveling, or doing something with their life. I have nothing to show. I have no money - But I do have over $10,000 in debt. I still live at home with my parents. My car is broken down and I can't even go anywhere. I am stuck in the house with no money, no boyfriend, and these stupid outrageous expectations. I keep hearing how well I am doing and how awesome I am and all I have is NOTHING.
My life is nothing. What is the purpose if I have no direction? What is the meaning if I have no results? I do nothing, I have nothing, I am nothing. What is the point of breathing when I am the equivalent of nothing? I don't want to be me any more. I want to be anyone, but me. I want to be the girl who has everything in front of them; the girl who has the ability to shop on credit and spend time with friends at the mall. I want to be the girl who can get on a plane and take off to a new place; the girl who is going places. I want to be the girl with the degree; the girl with the body; the girl with the boyfriend.
I hate who I am, I hate what I am doing, I hate the world, and I hate my life. I am in hell and I want out.
